Vlogging Challenge!

So the gorgeous Kirsty from Kirsty Dee Shares invited me to join in with her 7 day Vlogging Challenge. I’ve got to admit that my first thought was HELL NO! But after thinking about it more I decided that pushing myself out of my comfort zone would actually do me some good and so I threw in my hat.

And so this week I’ve uploaded a couple of videos to my YouTube channel – which you can find here , and surprisingly I’ve enjoyed it! Don’t get me wrong I still hate seeing my face on screen and am paranoid about putting myself out there in this way but I’m also super proud of myself for joining in – it definitely helps that Kirsty and the others joining in are being super supportive 🙂

Here is today’s video; would love to know what you think!

What would you like to hear me talk about?

Alex

xxx

The Reality of Being a Full Time Working Mum

I shared this post on Facebook the other day after a colleague of mine commented that I looked exhausted, I laughed it off “well I am a mum” but it made me think… I guess in reality I AM exhausted. Not that sleep-deprived exhaustion of the newborn days, when you are suddenly handed over this tiny living person who relies on you for everything, whose body clock is all jumbled up and who cries to be fed every couple of hours; but an exhaustion that has just become a completely ingrained part of me as a working mum. I asked a few friends, “Do you feel like this too?” and the answer was a resounding “Yes!”

We are bombarded with image on TV, in films or adverts, or even from Bloggers and on Pinterest  – those perfectly coiffed mums that have it all; who manage to jump on a conference call whilst their three kids eat dinner without so much as a murmured complaint about the food choice, and whose houses are always spotless and ‘visitor ready’. But that’s really not the reality of being a working mum – the reality is that, just like parenthood in general, it is really hard!

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It’s The Little Things 3/52

This is fast becoming one of my favourite posts to write each week – I love taking a moment to sit back and reflect on the past few days and feel gratitude for the little moments.

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This past week has been busy crazy and I’ve been on a roller-coaster of emotions. I went up to Glasgow for my Uncle’s funeral where I cried that I’d never again get to sit and hear a story from Uncle Pat, cried with happiness for a man whose life was spent serving and loving others and whose beautiful family are a testament to that, and I cried with hope that he is taking a seat in the heaven he so fervently believed in. And I laughed too; at stories shared by family and friends, at the jokes around the table once most of the guests had left, at the little cousin I’d never met before and who spent an hour telling me jokes. I smiled until my face ached, hugged and caught up with family I hadn’t seen for 17 years, spending an evening chatting and laughing with cousins I barely remembered but who I will definitely keep in touch with.

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The (not Big, not Fat) Quiz of The Year 2016 – reflections on the year & goals for 2017 tag!

Gosh that title is a bit of a mouthful isn’t it? Thank heavens i’m not writing this hungover (or still drunk!) – I actually love this feeling of waking up on New Years Day sober and fresh after a decent night’s sleep!

2016 was a strange year – in a way it flew by but there were also times where it seemed to drag on forever (especially that night where I stayed up to watch the US election results and cried into my cereal!!!)

I have done some amazing things this year, met some incredible people and had some fantastically fun times. Yet of course there has been darkness in this year too – and i’m not just talking on a global scale a la Trump and Brexit; for me my battles with anxiety and depression have really come to the fore, I ended my relationship with my mother after my parent’s horrendous divorce *although on reflection that’s only been a positive experience for me*, I have lost friends and family and I have had a very stressful work year. But I look at those things and whilst they were definitely negative parts of 2016 I can honestly say I am in a happier place now than I would have been if I hadn’t gone through them – I am so much stronger than I ever realised that I was; and that’s a really amazing thing for me to have realised.

Enough of the rambling; Rebecca at Mummy Est.2014, Jen at Just Average Jen and Lorna at Mums Wine HQ tagged me to join in with ‘The (not Big, not Fat) Quiz of the Year 2016 and so here goes:

What was your highlight of 2016?

Ooooh….. this is so hard because I really did get to do some amazing things in 2016… I’m going to have to pick three:

  • Seeing the Northern Lights in Iceland (I’ve still not got round to blogging this but I will do!)
  • Our family holiday to Prague
  • GLASGOW!!!

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Me, Myself and Mental Health

I’ve been wanting to write this post for so long, but I’ve never been able to find the right words – and even when I do manage to put the words down I never manage to press the publish button.

Anxiety. Mental Health Issues. Depression. 

These words carry so much stigma in our society. You can have a physical ailment and everyone is understanding, supportive, empathetic. But you try and tell someone that you have a mental health illness and suddenly it’s awkward, uncomfortable, and you find them looking at you a little differently – or just staring at you seemingly worried that you are about to snap and hurt them.

One in four people will experience a mental health problem every year* – that’s a LOT of people; that’s one of your co-workers, your friends, your family… maybe that’s you. And yet, despite the volume of people who experience them we are seemingly unable to talk about the subject or to share our suffering with others. This lack of communication is a vicious circle – you have mental health issues, you feel like you can’t tell people and so you isolate yourself more, the more you isolate yourself the more your mental health deteriorates and so on. I know this from my own experience – it can be so hard to start the conversation, it can feel impossible to get others to understand what you are going through. And yet the right support can really help with mental health issues.

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Even as I write this post I feel embarrassed, ashamed and scared; I am worried that when I click publish people will look at me differently or that they will find it uncomfortable to be around me. I worry that writing it down makes it more real, my chest is hurting and I feel nauseous thinking that other people will know this truth about me – they’ll know my weakness. Continue reading